'Siyo or Osiyo

The last Download from God™ was, WHY DO I HAVE TO BE REMINDED THAT I LOVE YOU?

For those of you who do not know, every morning I wake up to music playing outside of my head (no radio on), which I call a Musical DLG™ (Download from God™). This morning's Musical DLG™ called, 'Save Me' by Aimee Mann came as a bit of a surprise because it's a melancholy kind of song and I don't consider myself to be a melancholy individual. I can be, but not generally, I'm too lazy to be melancholy because it's too much emotional work. I have things to do and a Life to live, so I can't spend too much time in melancholy-mode. Plus, it would be dumping into my South Node Pisces, since Pisces rules mental health. I have to roll along the lines of my North Node Virgo, which rules physical health. So while I laid there listening to this song play 'outside of my head' I wondered if I had been tempting, doubting or challenging God.

I have my share of questions, doubts and challenges, but I will not cave into them because it's too hard. I'm not that kind of strong, to sit in that kind of energy. On the other side of those question marks, doubts and challenges I still know that God 'IS'. He's the first place I go during doubt, worry, fear or anxiety. I know that God 'IS'. It's everything else that has a question mark. Maybe it's that "everything else" that I am asking God to save me from so I don't have to do the work. The work being spiritual, emotional, physical, mental, etc.

As I continued to lay there listening to the song I heard, "Just stand up!" It's like it came over the loudspeakers to drown out the song. "JUST STAND UP!" I had to laugh because the visual that came with it was me flailing in the water thinking I was drowning when all I had to do was stand up.

Denadagohvyu ['Until we meet again' in Cherokee]

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